Selflessness

That word eluded me completely before I had kids. And now, just as my son turns four years old, I realize how selfless I'm called to be. My children need ALL OF ME right now in their lives. I can put my plans aside for them. I love them enough. It is possible. Just as Jesus calls me to hide in him and die to myself, my children deserve this sacrifice of mine. This means no more planning for a career, but learning to be a better mom. This means saving my time to myself for when the kids are asleep, instead of logging onto facebook or blogging when they are awake and need my attention. This means seeking career success for my husband's career so that I can stay with my kids and raise them. This is so hard for me, but I know it's what I need to do. I pray to God to give me the strength to do it.